The Jar of Hotness has Spoken

Once a week we will dedicate a post to one of the men that inspire us. Even though some of them are happily married, some of them are gay, and some of them are no longer living, but their extreme hotness, total crushability, or complete adorableness inspire us to be become better versions of ourselves.


This week, the name given to us by the Jar of Hotness was Mr. Tom Cruise


Now, I know that Tom's gone a little crazy the last few years but you can't deny the fact that he is freaking gorgeous. The only time I've ever seen him not be hot was playing Les Grossman in Tropic Thunder. And it took a fat suit and bald cap to make him unattractive to me. I'm just saying.

Tom Cruise has been in so many movies. The first movie I remember seeing him in was actually the first movie he ever did. It was a film called Legend and it was a fantastic movie. He was wonderful and Tim Curry played the devil and it was an all around awesome movie. Since then Tom has done SO many movies. Cocktail, Risky Business, Top Gun, all four Mission Impossible movies, with a 5th one on the way. Born on the 4th of July (which my brother was in, by the way), Far and Away, Days of Thunder, A Few Good Men, Jerry McGuire and so many more.


It's safe to say that I have had at least a minor crush on Tom for nearly 30 years and I am 34 years old. About the time I stopped thinking boys were icky, I discovered Tom Cruise. Even being a little off his rocker as of late, he's gorgeous. He's on the crazy/hot scale that's for damn sure, but I will never stop loving him in some way or another. I have yet to see a movie with Tom Cruise in it that I did not at least mildly enjoy.


And let's not forget about him as Lestat. When he played a REAL vampire instead of a sparkly, tree flying pseudo vampire. Tom did such an amazing job as Lestat and I love watching that movie, even though it is quite a bit different from the books.


So there you have it. The hot guy of the week is Tom Cruise. Tune in next week to see who we have next. WE won't even know who it is until Saturday morning. Maybe late Friday night. :-) And I apologize for not being able to get the pictures all in a row. I'm rubbish with anything but simple HTML. If you have any suggestions, feel free to comment. Thanks.

Dreams

First of all, woot to blogger.com for having a mobile app. My phone doesn't like the website. This makes things easier. 

Last night I had this dream that all of my belly fat just disappeared like in that Nationwide Insurance Commercial.  I wish they could do that because I have insurance with them.  My hips have lost at least another inch but my gut is still there. 

I need to either start going to the gym more or start doing the fitness games I have for Wii more.  And I need to get off work in time to make it to Taekwondo more than once or twice a week.  I also need to keep better track of my calories. I know last night my dinner of meat loaf, mashed potatoes, and butter covered broccoli wasn't exactly on the low end of the calorie scale. 

I need to stop being lazy and get off my ass and really work at this.  Ugh. 

Hot Guys

I have to admit that feeling better about myself isn't the only reason that I am trying to get thin. Being healthy isn't the only reason either. I am trying to get thin and feel like I'm gorgeous for one very specific reason.

JEREMY RENNER IS STILL SINGLE!

Yes, I know I have very little chance of actually even meeting the man, let alone having him fall in love with me, but it's nice to have something to aim for, right?

Now, once a week on this blog, on Saturdays, Cally and I will be making a post dedicated to one of the very hot guys that have been inspiring us to get thin and beautiful. We have a very long list of names and rather than do our favorites first and the others later, I have taken these names and put them into what I call the JAR OF HOTNESS to be drawn at random.

The list is long enough we might end up doing this more than once a week but I don't know. It might get a little redundant because each post will be headed with our "once a week" explanation. Of course, if we didn't have a list and didn't draw names at random, pretty much every week would be dedicated to the awesome gorgeousness that is Jeremy Renner.



Just saying.



Becca

Okay, so this is the first official post of The Fat Plan. We wanted to go with 2 Fat Girls but it was taken already.

Cally and I started our dieting back in May of this year. She started a week before I did, but she talked me into it. Because of my job, I don't really get a chance to eat lunch and I was drinking soda to make up for it. The carbonated water kept me feeling full and the calories kept me going. The problem is, I was going through about a gallon of soda a day. Then I would top it off at night with about half a gallon of sweet tea. With that, and the way I was eating, I was consuming about 5000 calories a day and I was not burning off that much. I was 220 pounds, at least. Maybe 225. On May 10, 2012 I had my last soda and sweet tea. I drink water, gator ade, and unsweet tea now. I started taking home made protein smoothies to work with me so that I can drink them in the car if necessary. I'm still having a problem with the way I eat at home, but I'll get into that another time.

Right now, we're going to talk about self image. Since May, I've only lost 20lbs but I've lost 6 inches. I had to buy men's pants because I can't find women's cargo pants that I can actually wear to work and I need cargo pants for work. I have gone from a 40 to a 34. My mom keeps talking about how skinny I've gotten. The thing is, I don't feel like I've gotten skinny. I only went from a 18 to a 16 in women's jeans. I still feel fat.

This is a picture of me in my Halloween costume. This picture was taken three or four days ago. This is my current physique. My mom tells me that I look skinny. Cally tells me that I look skinny. I don't feel skinny.

This is what I feel like I look like. I see myself in that picture and this is what I see. I look in the mirror and this is what I see. Even putting on the smaller sized clothes, I feel like I'm still fat and gross. This is what I'm having to deal with on a daily basis. I've spent so much time hating myself that I don't know how to do anything else. I keep telling myself that I'm awesome and pretty but it doesn't sink in. I keep seeing the person that I've hated all my life. When even your siblings call you fat and ugly, it's hard to think anything else.





That is why I am doing this. Because I am tired of looking at myself and hating what I see. I'm tired of wishing I was someone else. And I'm tired of thinking that no man will ever want to be with me. I want to finally feel good about myself.