Excuses, Excuses, Excuses, and Addiction.

So there I was saying I would post every day and then I didn't post.  In my defense, I had to work from 6am - 5pm and then had to be in bed in time to be up at 230am on Saturday for my shift at Einstein.  And then I had craft day after I got off work and didn't get home until after 6pm and then had to be in bed for my 3am shift at Einstein today.  But those are all just excuses, which I seem to make a lot of lately.

I make excuses for everything.  I can't go running because it's too hot.  Then when it cools down I can't go running because I worked all day.  And so forth and so on.  All just excuses.  I can't go to the gym because it's too much hassel or I don't have the time, when I know I do.  I have to eat that chocolate cake because I had a really bad day and I need it.  I make excuses and I am trying to stop but stopping is hard when you've been doing it all your life.  Which, by the way, is another excuse.


Now on to addiction.  I know for a fact that I was addicted to soda.  How do I know this, you ask?  Because I am still craving soda.  I could open up a Coke and chug it right now.  It has been

485 days or
41,904,000 seconds or
698,400 minutes or
11,640 hours or
69 weeks (rounded down)

Since the last time I had a soda and I still feel the way I did the day after I stopped drinking it.  I was told that after the first six months or so, it's easy and you don't crave it anymore.  But I still do.  I so still do.  And it doesn't help that I am surrounded by soda every where I go.  At Einstein we're allowed a free drink but only a fountain soda.  So I have to pay full price for a glass of orange juice ($2.79) or a bottle of water ($1.50) since I don't drink soda.  At Pizza Hut we sell both 2 Liters and 20oz bottles of soda.  I see it every day.  It's frustrating as hell.  And I just want to grab one of the two liter bottles and chug it like my life depends on it.  But I don't.  I happily drink from my bottle of water and move on.  Soda is no longer part of my life but it is an addiction for which I can not remove the triggers.  An alcoholic can stop going to bars and liquor stores.  A drug addict can stop hanging out with other drug addicts.  Me?  Soda is such a part of this every day culture that there's no way to avoid it.  It's a had fight but it is one that I am continuing every day.  And I will not break.  I've gone too long to give up now.